
I need to go back to yoga. If you read the article below, you will understand why. (And since I say some not-very-nice things about my hometown in it--and Best Friend is sure to kick my ass if I blog bad about Van City one more time--let me offer the above photo for balance. The city is breathtakingly beautiful right now. Still boring, though. Ooops.)
Assuming the Lotusland position
By TARA HENLEY October 12, 2004 (The Globe and Mail)
I often think that I grew up on the wrong side of the country, that I'm simply not West Coast material.
Unlike the majority of my fellow Vancouverites, I am fanatically obsessed with time and totally addicted to work. I prefer Prada to Mountain Equipment Co-op any day of the week. I bump Jay-Z in my Discman, not Jack Johnson. I abhor decaffeinated beverages, I don't hike, or camp
--or even Rollerblade, for that matter--and I'm constantly getting irritated with folks who amble leisurely down the street. (Don't they realize that some people have places to go?) So it should come as no surprise that I've always detested the idea of yoga.
As is usually the case, my bias has quite a bit of history to it. I was raised between two artistic, intellectual households. Now I appreciate what my parents gave me--a love of the arts, sharp critical-thinking skills, an unquenchable appetite for learning, a sense of social justice--but back then I just wanted a mom who baked cookies and a dad who played golf.
Instead of teeing off, my father, a Buddhist poet and psychologist, set up a shrine on the second-floor landing of our False Creek townhouse. In my early teen years, I was constantly crashing into him in some contorted yoga pose, or else finding him cross-legged, silently meditating.
With the kind of biting scorn that high-school girls are experts at, I thereafter denounced anything and everything that I deemed "hippie"--which, in the end, translated into an enormous laundry list that included soy products and self-help books (I still can't stomach those), as well as incense, herbal tea, Banyan Books, The Naam Restaurant, and the Vancouver Folk Music Festival.
Yoga absolutely topped my list of Flaky Things To Be Avoided. Why in the world would I pay to go somewhere where everyone was busy breathing heavily and greeting each other with misty-eyed marathon hugs?
You can imagine my surprise when yoga became ultra-trendy with the non-fat latte set. All over Kitsilano, I saw people clad from head to toe in Lululemon apparel, displaying their yoga mats like trophies, and stretching out their limber joints at crosswalks. My hippest girlfriends approached me regularly. "Come to yoga," they urged. "It's so relaxing. Plus, it's a great place to meet guys."
Of course, I thought, because hanging out in a downward facing dog is always ideal for chatting up prospective dates.
So I kept resisting yoga and working long hours as a journalist. In the meantime, my body was showing signs of the stress I was under. I was cranky; I developed a raging resentment against my e-mail in-box; I had fantasies about drowning my cellphone. I was experiencing shortness of breath; my shoulders were as hard as rocks; my sternum began making involuntary clicking noises. Lots of nights, I couldn't sleep.
I may be a Type A personality, but I am certainly not a glutton for punishment. I wasn't enjoying these symptoms, and I knew that I needed to find a way to cope with stress. After reading music mogul Russell Simmons's autobiography,
Life and Def, in which he credits yoga for his transformation from workaholic executive to happy, balanced billionaire, I decided to reconsider my anti-yoga stance. The clincher came when I heard that rapper 50 Cent had taken it up, too. If someone as gangsta as Fifty can get down with it, I reasoned, surely I can give it a shot. Armed with steely resolve--I would relax, damn it, whether I liked it or not--I set off to my local yoga studio.
Who knew that yoga was so utterly fabulous? From the first hour I spent on that comfy mat in that calm room, I was hooked. I discovered that stretching, breathing, and meditating in a room full of others (who are prohibited from talking to you) is the perfect antidote to the chaos of modern urban life. How else can you obtain an hour of total relaxation in the middle of a hectic day? What other form of exercise encourages you to work at your own pace, not push your body, and nurture yourself?Far from being some New Age, hippie-dippy trend, yoga has quickly become a foundation for my mental and physical health. It quiets my mind, strengthens my muscles, treats insomnia, increases my breathing capacity--and allows me to block off periods of time that are for me and me alone. No cellphones, no small talk, no faxes or e-mails or couriers.
Make no mistake--I'm still not a model of serenity. Some days I spend the silent relaxation period of class making mental to-do lists and anxiously watching the clock; last week I almost lost it on a spaced-out chick who accidentally left her stinky socks on my mat. But, aside from these occasional relapses, I feel calmer, healthier, and more content. Now I actually qualify as a Lotuslander--and most of the time I don't even cringe at that fact.